Saying "No" to Possessive Urges

I received a request recently to write about about how to avoid acting possessive. Here goes.

A couple of weeks ago I wrote about how to avoid possessive people, by recognizing the signs. I also talked about the difference between feeling, and acting, possessive. The tendency to feel possessive about someone is very natural, but it should never be indulged. So...what if you're feeling possessive, and bordering on acting possessive? Maybe it wasn't an issue for the first few weeks of your relationship, but now you want him/her all to yourself and you occasionally make an effort to accomplish this. You know this isn't the way you're supposed to act, but what can you do??

First of all, just breathe for a minute, cookie. Chances are, you're probably super-stressed to begin with. So breathe. Close your eyes and take full, deep breaths, filling your belly with air...then your center...and then your chest. Notice the thoughts moving through your mind, but don't focus on any particular thought...just let them continue moving, like clouds. Exhale slowly, imagining all of your body's tension leaving you. Take the next few minutes to just breathe. ... Feel a little better? If you don't, repeat the breathing exercise a few more times.

Now that you're a bit more relaxed, let's move on.

Understand why possessive behavior is unhealthy. This is important. If you're feeling super-possessive about your significant other, it is probably fair to assume that your social life is lacking. You spend most nights either alone or with your significant other. Maybe you were always a bit of a loner, or maybe you slowly, without even meaning to, blew off your friends one by one after you began your romantic relationship. Regardless, you are now emotionally dependent on your boyfriend/girlfriend. (Oh enough of this 'him/her' stuff...let's go with the genderless name 'Stevie'). Anyway, it's not a good place for either of you to be, because you are relying on Stevie for everything, and Stevie has the responsibility of keeping you happy all the time. This will inevitably result in a massive amount of stress for both of you.

So work on your social life. It's great to have Stevie, but you should also have a nice circle of friends. It doesn't have to be a huge circle, but you should always try to make new friends. Meaning, don't stop looking after you've made a couple of friends and say, "Hey, I made my Friend Quota for this year!" It is so important to connect with as many people as possible...I can't emphasize this enough. Knowing you've got friends who'll always be there for you is the kind of reassurance we all need on a daily basis. There is a lot of love to be found in the world. If you're only looking for romantic love, then you're missing out big-time. If you're not even sure where to look for friends, check out OkCupid; it's a great site to meet people who mesh with you.

It's hard to feel good about yourself if you don't think you're needed. You've gotten to a point where you need Stevie on a desperate level. And it feels gross to you, because you still don't feel needed yourself. So when you try to keep Stevie all to yourself, is it only because you crave lots of attention? Or, is it a combination of that craving, and a hope to cut Stevie off from other friends? If you think about it, that latter bit would make your situation and Stevie's situation identical. You'd only have each other. How romantic...and profoundly sad.

By this point I have probably struck a nerve and you may be feeling kinda lousy about yourself. But don't. After all, the reason you're reading this is because you want to better yourself. So cheer up! You're leagues ahead of most people out there, and you should be proud of that. Treat yourself to an ice cream novelty. Oh...now I'm hungry. Damn. Anyway, onto the next part.

No secrets are necessary. Tell your significant other what you're going through. Don't be scared that you'll be looked at as though you're crazy. Say, "Look, here's what I'm trying to deal with right now. I know it's not right to feel this way, and I want to be better. I want our relationship to be healthy. Could you work with me on this?" If Stevie is worth all the effort you've put in so far, you'll have plenty of support. And you'll feel better because everything will be out in the open. I mean, seriously, who likes having secrets? They just serve to make you feel gross inside. Avoid grossness. Embrace communication.

Fairness is key. I've mentioned this in other articles, but when you're in a romantic relationship, it's very helpful to remember the Golden Rule: "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." We all desire personal freedom. So do you really want to take away Stevie's personal freedom whilst you retain your own? Well, you might want that. But now that you realize your double standards, can you make that kind of demand and feel okay about it? Be fair; it's the right thing to do.

I want to say thank you to Liza for suggesting this article topic. To Liza and everyone else who reads this article, thanks for reading, and I hope it can be of some help to you.

Now, for that ice cream novelty...

Communication in Relationships: A Necessity, Not An Option

I must sound like a broken record by now when I say this, but communication is of the utmost importance in relationships. I tend to believe that none of us are born with this understanding -- that it's a learn-from-your-mistakes kind of deal. Which...*ahem*...means that one of my relationships was ruined due to lousy communication. So this week's blog from me is about one of my screw-ups. Gotta keep myself humble, yeah? Heh, here goes.

Two years ago I briefly got involved with a fella who we'll call Seth. Everything about him seemed great -- he was gorgeous, smart, ambitious, funny, etc.. I remember we laughed together a lot. We were quite attracted to each other, so things between us became sexy very quickly. He was awesome...except when I wanted to have a serious conversation.

I'm a chatty lady with those I'm close to, and with those with whom I want to become close. And I thought Seth and I would become close, but we didn't. The several attempts I made to share anything personal were quickly shot down with a joke and a laugh. It hurt, because I was sleeping with him and wanted us to have genuine intimacy. I let it go, though, because everything else about him was wonderful.

So we continued our nothing-but-fun relationship, but it didn't last very long.

He canceled a date of ours and then I didn't hear from him for a week and a half, only to receive a break-up e-mail. He said he was sorry for avoiding me, but he had met someone. "I still want to hang out," he said. But after writing a couple of responses and hearing nothing, I gave up. (Granted, the first of the two responses from me was emotional/angry and the second was my apology for it. Der!) That was it -- I never heard from him again. Huh.

What was the problem? Well, it would be awfully lame of me to sit here and pile the blame on him. So...let's not. After all, I was there, too. So instead let me share with you what I should have done.

I should have told him what I was looking for. Sure, I told him all about my open relationship with Aaron, but that was the extent of communication on my part. To be honest, it hadn't even occurred to me that I would have to come out and say "I'm looking for a semi-serious relationship." Why not? Well, I assumed he wanted the same thing. Oops.

See I figured, since he was such a nice guy and had shown me a lot of respect, that he was definitely hoping to have something deeper than casual sex. Again, I say oops. I suspect that it was an idea planted in my head from watching too many movies. You've seen the same ones, I bet - the romantic comedies where the men who just sleep around are jerks, and the nice, sweet guys always want "happily ever after." But in this less-popcorn-worthy reality, not everything is black and white. And it is perfectly okay for someone to just want sex. A perfectly kind, moral person can want a just-sex relationship, and Seth is proof of this. He just kinda sucked at communicating and, unfortunately, so did I.

My affair with Seth probably would have ended around the same time, no matter what. But if our communication had been even a fraction better than it was, I would have known what kind of relationship we had going, and I could have walked away with closure once it was over. So if you catch nothing else of this particular article, absorb this: When beginning a new romantic relationship (of *any* kind) with someone, have "the talk." I'm not necessarily saying that you should bring it up at the first hang-out session; that might be terrifying to your date, heh. But definitely start thinking about it, and by the third date, you both should probably have your hopes out in the open. In other words, do as I say, not as I do...er...did. :P

Why I Chose Polyamory

I broached the subject of an open relationship with Aaron three years ago partly because I was antsy. He was the first boyfriend I'd ever had, and while I loved him very much, I was also becoming scared at the idea that he might be the only person I'd ever know intimately and sexually. Wouldn't I be missing out on important life experiences? In addition, I'd always felt that connecting with people on a very intimate level was my main reason for being alive. Sure, I could have settled for making new friends and becoming very close to them, but like I said before, I was also antsy. So really, it was a combination of the two needs that led me to propose polyamory.

He wasn't very enthusiastic at first. At all. In fact, we broke up, got back together a few hours later and, after a very teary conversation about how much we loved each other, he agreed to give polyamory a try. I did feel pretty shitty, because I knew he still wanted monogamy and was just agreeing to do whatever I wanted so I'd stay. But at the same time, I was positive that once he met another girl, he'd immediately see the value in what we were doing. (This is indeed what went on to happen with Tara. But that's a different blog :o)

I didn't have much of a plan for how it would all work; it was to be a learn-as-you-go kind of thing. But that excited me as much as anything else, because my relationship with Aaron had become so comfortable and well-worn that I was thrilled about venturing into the unknown. I was a little nervous, sure, but the possibilities seemed limitless, and I had images of all sorts of happy, unconventional relationships running through my head.

Straight up, I wasn't expecting my relationship with Aaron to change. I thought we'd be happier, but I was assuming that our outside relationships would be the direct sources of joy. I was wrong. The truth is, we are closer and happier now than we ever were as a monogamous couple. Why?

I've spent a long time thinking about what it was that I'd felt was missing from my relationship with Aaron, and I've concluded that it was the spark of romance. We'd lost it. Was this a terrible thing? Well, yes, but it shouldn't have been unexpected. Let's face it: In any long-term relationship, you're bound to feel bored at some point. I know, I know -- it feels yucky to even *think* such a thing, what with our fantasies of "happily ever after" and all. But, hey, denial isn't going to fix anything, right? The simple fact is that your relationship isn't likely to feel new if it's old. You've spoken with, kissed and held your partner more times than you can count, and the feeling of newness is gone.

I noticed improvements in my relationship with Aaron very soon after I started seeing other people. It was because I had found the spark again. You may be thinking, "Uh...yeah, but you found it with someone ELSE." True! And that is an excellent observation, by the way! But you know what I figured out? The spark wasn't found in the men I was seeing; it was found because of them, but really, it was in me all along. It had simply needed to be rekindled through an exciting experience: dating. All of my newfound passion was transferred into my relationship with Aaron. I won't go into detail here, but suffice it to say, we thrill each other in many lovely ways now...*wink wink*. My relationship with Aaron still isn't "new," but it is more wonderful than I ever thought it could be.

You can have this with your life partner, too, as long as you are always honest, communicative, and supportive. Hold nothing back, and you'll be on your way to a life more satisfying than you ever imagined possible.